1:12 pm , still Monday. Time is passing so slow; after lunch I had one of the crisis. But I am not sure anyone who didn't pass through these moments can understand what a crisis means. How does it feel exactly? Well , first, there is this rush through your whole body which gives you shivering and a need of smashing anything in your way. I mean, ANYTHING! Then there is the fact that your mind is foggy , you can't concentrate whatsoever, everything you see or think is that you NEED TO LIGHT a cigarette. Then you are dizzy, sometimes at the edge of fainting . And your state of mind oscillates from depression to hope in a timescale of minutes!
There are moments when I am sure that I can't take it anymore ; but then again what is the worse that can happen ? Die from one of these crisis? small probability :) I wish it was possible to go to sleep and wake up in one month when all the nicotine would have gone away.
Ok, I need to concentrate somehow!!! Some yoga techniques would have been very helpful right now !
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