Thursday, August 1, 12:31 pm
Last night at 11:20, I had the last cigarette. I woke up late today, much later than usual; I opened my eyes, realized what day it is , remembered what that meant and said a loud and angry f***! In 20 min I was out of the flat, one of the 2-3 times in few good years I went outside without having the coffee first.
Nothing unusual until I got to my office, just the annoying smell of cigarettes in the bus stops. I could even actually work a bit before had lunch;
2:39 pm
my brain transformed in a foggy place from which no intelligent idea can emerge. Feels like I can't think any more ; and all this because the level of nicotine in the blood dropped significantly (yesterday at this time I would have already smoked one pack and I was on the way for the second one) ;
besides it is so hot today, "perfect" weather to impose more stress on the body.
I was always amazed by the saying "mind over matter"! If only I could fool my body to think that the nicotine is still there or even better to erase any history of interaction with this drug. I have to do more research on this idea .
Meanwhile, a quick overview of the symptoms:
aggressivity level : normal (yes, unexpected, but true ;) )
dizziness level: over the top (worse than during a hangover)
pain: small headache and throat pain
over all characterization : lost in space and time ; in this withdrawal period you are much more aware of what happens in your body and mind than aware of the external world !
So far so good! Now, when it is the second time of doing this, is actually easier. I know I just have to be patient and it will get better ! 3-4 days of hell, 3 weeks of purgatory and then I am back on the happy side of life ! So let the countdown start !